I was a 26 year old single mom of a 9 year old when I found a lump in my right breast. I’m naturally a very paranoid person so I panicked. I called my regular gynecologists who, like most women, I saw only once a year. The nurse that called me back a day later brushed me off. She told me to keep my plans for my annual visit that was coming up in 2 months. She was certain it was nothing. I trusted them so I waited.
The wait was torture. I felt the lump every day. I named it Fred. He felt like a much smaller version of one of those plastic ring spiders you can get out of a gumball machine, ridged and out of place. I loved hating him and struggled to keep the secret. I was mad.
Two months later my doctor laughed when I explained the anxiety I’ve had waiting. Before even shaking one of Fred’s legs she explained the odds of him being nothing was 90%. I had no family history, was young, relatively healthy, and I didn’t smoke. She was convinced I was good. Finally, she touched Fred and kept touching him. The rest of the exam went on with minimal talking. Right before the perfunctory ‘it’s ok to get dressed’ she asked to touch Fred again. She said an appointment for an ultrasound was needed. I started to cry again and this time she didn’t laugh.
The ultrasound led to a diagnostic mammogram which led to scans, a needle biopsy and lots of poking and talking. I discovered what Invasive ductal carcinoma is. There was chemo, radiation, hair loss, sickness, surgery, fights with my insurance company and a severe depression. I lost a year. My son lost his mom. We were all alone with each other.
October 2005 I was given a clean bill of health. I took advantage of it and l ignored me for five years. I got married, pregnant, gained lots of weight and rarely talked about what had happened; only discussing it at regular checkups. I’d lost all worry and fear of illness. Life went on in an uneventful fashion. No lessons were learned.
In June 2011 I found CrossFit and Barbells for Boobs. My life hasn’t been the same since. I’m better. I care more. I love and laugh more. I have pride and confidence. I know now that I can do more to remain free of disease. I’m finally aware that I have more control of my wellness and future. I’m living with desire to grow old, learn from my mistakes and be grateful.
This year, on October 27th, the plan is to Rx Grace in front of a bunch of Barbells for Boobs supporters at CFNH. In 2011 I could only do 30 Clean & Jerks at 75#. In 2012 I could barely do 85#. I also want to raise some money for a cause that actually helps people in need of screening procedures that I fought tooth and nail to get for myself.
Barbells for Boobs is a 501(c)3 nonprofit organization whose mission is to provide funding to breast care centers though the Mammograms in Action Grant Program. It provides qualified low-income and uninsured women and men screening and/or diagnostic procedures in the prevention and early detection of breast cancer. Mammograms in Action Grant Program is a “last resort” resource for thousands of people who do not qualify for government funded or other charitable resources that aid in breast cancer screening and early detection.
3 minutes of z1 work
3-5 minutes of movement prep
*ankles, hips, t-spine
3-5 minutes of workout prep
-10 pulls on rower *form
A.Hang power clean – build to tough single in 10 min
B. CG Bench @30×1; 4 x 4 – 5
5 DL (225/135)
(can scale DL up to 275/185)